Lost my motivation...

It is gone! I don't know where it went. I was doing really well then for various reasons I stopped bootcamp and with that my eating habits went to hell in a hand basket. I thought to myself hey I lost 35 pounds I can eat whatever I want.. well that thinking is wrong and it got me to gain some weight back. Not a lot mind you but enough to make me go GET BACK ON TRACK! I have got our meals planned for the entire month and I am trying to limit the eating out and carbs we eat. I can't go back to where I was.. for one I gave all my "really fat" clothes away and I won't go buy new fat stuff. I miss working out and my leg that I hurt back in April is barely NOW felling better. I went on a run a few weeks ago and my 11 minute mile went to 19 minutes because my leg hurt so much. Then it was really hot ( I learned that I like running in cold weather).
So my goal for June is to shed 10 pounds. I know I can do this I just need to get with the program. I will break out the 4,000 exercise  DVD's I have and get my ass in gear. I will try to run as well I know I need to get back to my old run time.
I am also taking Raspberry Ketones. I saw them on Dr. Oz a few months ago and thought hey those might work. Two of the girls I work with are taking them and they like them and have maintained their weight as well as decreased their appetite. I just started them yesterday so I will report how they make me feel.
I am just upset with myself for falling off the healthy lifestyle train.. I know I can catch it again.

Life sometimes gets in the way

It has been a very long time since my last post. So here is what has been going on. Back on April 2 I was at boot-camp and we were doing our usual stuff. When they were like OKAY lets all do CARTWHEELS! I was like hmm ok I know I can do this. See back last year my sister in law and I  were doing them at the park. Were we sore the next day? yes! BUT I did it so I knew I could do it here for class. So off I went after the first one I knew I had done "something" to my leg. I thought well sometimes when you do a crazy move your muscles get pulled a little to much so I thought nothing of it. I continued to do them and it still hurt but again I thought well my body hasn't done a cartwheel in a very long time it's just freaking out. So later that morning the soldier wanted to go to the river and fish. I thought well this is a good time to go for a mile run. I had downloaded this new app called Zombies, Run! It's an app that give you a story line as you run and zombies chase you.. (ok it's all make believe but trust me when you hear them coming for you, you are running your ass off!
Well during that run I felt a pop or snap in my left hamstring the same leg I hurt doing cartwheels. I could barely walk but I again pushed through it. I finished my run/walk sat down and waited for Josh and waited.. so I thought well I feel better lets go again. I don't think I finished the run because of the pain.
So I have been going to the chiropractor for about 2 weeks and the problem is still there. I can't bend over without pain or walk so I am going to the doctor today.
On another note I will not be going back to boot-camp. I start my practicum for school on the 30th and it lasts until about June 20. Once the little one is out of school I have to pay someone to watch her while I am at work so the money spent on boot-camp will be going toward childcare. Also the solider will be going to AT for about 2 1/2 weeks. So during that time I would not have anyone to watch the little one.
I am sad that I had to stop I am glad I can sleep in! I have wanted to get back to working out on my own but with this bum leg I can't do much.
I am still maintaining my weight loss and we are starting the boot-camp diet soon. Life in our house is going to be busy this summer. I graduate on June 22 and then we are off to a little vacation to a place I don't like going to but the little one wants to see her mema so I am taking one for the team.

Never thought I would get this far.

So here I am 25 pounds lighter. I feel better and like the new me. Sure I still go to the XL sections at stores I mean that is what I have been doing for years! Some of my shirts that I bought while heavy and were tight are now to big and sadly I never really got to wear them. Some of my bra's are even to big.. EEK! Today a friend said.. "hey looks like you need to get some new pants!" lol yup I do. I donated about 10 pairs and have about 4 that fit.. scratch that 3 that fit. I am still excited to be dropping weight and have no plans on stopping right now. Looking at a website that says what your ideal body weight for med frame it is 127-141 and for large frame it is 137-155. If you have a small frame which I do not it is even smaller but since I am not a small frame (am i?) I won't bother with that number. I know it's not always good to go for a weight but to me I think that it is a tangible goal to have so I think my ideal goal weight it 135. It falls in the range of both med/large frame. I hope to be in a size 8.. wow 8!
Another milestone was reached... for the first time in her life Alexa was able to give me a hug and her hands actually touched behind me! Her arms fit all the way around me! this has never happened and it felt amazing! She smiled big when I pointed it out to her!
It has been a long long road and I still have a long and rough road ahead. I have to keep looking forward and take a few glances behind me so I don't forget how far I have actually traveled.

Truth be told

I have actually lost 31 pounds. I keep a record of when I first "started" um gave a "half-hearted" um "sorta" tried to lose weight. I was at my heaviest which was 230 pounds! yes I said it I had let myself get THAT heavy! I knew that was as far as I was going to go anything over that and I would have wanted to shot myself. So all in all 31 pounds have gone and 21 of them have been gone since January 2, 2012.
I went thru all my jeans yesterday. I had about 10 pairs that I could wear most of them would fall off me as I was walking so they are in the donation pile. I am down to 4 that fit me. One pair is questionable they fit a little big but still not big enough to fall off so they will be the ones I wear when the others are dirty.
My shirts are way to big as well but some of them I can make due for the winter/spring what ever is going on right now with the weather. Then on to summer I have to buy new stuff all around. My shorts won't be fitting me and my current bathing suit lets all my stuff hang out.
So there you go getting into shape and fitting into things I haven't been able to wear in ages. In a size I haven't been in in over 7 years.
Thanks to my husband with all the daily support. I love you babe. (even if he NEVER reads this)

The good thing about getting sick is.....

Losing weight! I have lost almost 5 pounds since getting sick. So I suppose that is the only good thing that has come out of me getting sick.
I have been going to class all last week.. even in the wind, rain and snow. This week I doubt I will even make it. I can barely get out of bed more less get up and go work out. I feel horrible..... I tried tried tried to not catch the germs that my hubby and daughter had... I guess it didn't work. I don't feel like doing anything and even walking down the stairs takes it out of me.
Well nothing else to report.. being sick sucks!

Long time... not post... new pant size

So it has been a long time since I have posted. I have been lazy and along with not eating right I haven't posted. I have been going to class (but missed some as well) but I felt like I haven't really been doing as well as I should be. We have had family in town visiting and I finally had some alcohol. I can say that I don't really miss the alcohol and I could easily get stop the drinking and not ever miss it. I have eaten horribly (at least to me). I have had a ton of foods I haven't had in a long long time. My scale showed the results of my poor eating habits. I need to turn it around and get back on the wagon and keep moving forward.
The good thing I went shopping this weekend and have went from a size 20 to a size 16!  I haven't been in a 16 in a very very long time! I am excited to know that soon I won't be able to shop at lane bryant and will be able to pick up my stuff at any store I want. So here is what has been going on and why I have been MIA. I will be back to blogging, eating right and going to boot-camp!

It doesn't pay to not eat right

So after 6 weeks of the BIRK bootcamp I was able to let the diet wagon stop for a little bit. Now I didn't go off the rails or anything BUT I did get a little lazy on the eating right. Well the scale showed it (not much BUT it did go in the wrong direction) and today my at my CORE class I felt it. My stomach hurt and I was sluggish (more than normal). I will say that I will get back to the healthy eating again and not let myself feel this way again.
This has to be a lifestyle change more than a "right now" change. I will stay the course for myself and my family.
I also need to really keep on running.... If I want to keep my current time for this summer I must continue to run at least once a week...
Good to be back at class and kicking ass!